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Another writing prompt!

Jairus always reminds me that "perfect is the enemy of good", so I'm giving myself some slack re: getting behind on these.

Prompt: Are you okay with letting people see you cry?

I don't think I have a lot of interesting things to say about this! I guess the answer is basically "Yes, fortunately."  I cry pretty easily. Most people have seen me cry, I'm pretty sure.  Anyone who has watched a movie with me. Or a trailer for a movie. 

For example, this trailer* totally made me cry the other day:

So, yeah. Sometimes I'm embarrassed by how easily I am manipulated by editing+soundtrack, but I'm never embarrassed about the fact that I cry! I got a lot of feelings, y'all.

*appears to be more like a 2minute summary of the entire movie.


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Sep. 11th, 2012 06:07 am (UTC)
i dig the 'mothers getting fucking ferocious for their kids thing,'

but the other part of this trailer made me really uncomfortable. it seems to be kinda demonizing the school system a bit? and it seems like this is kindof a popular thing to do lately (though possibly only among parents and people i know... and maybe also possibly only because i have peers and friends with school-age children only recently? i'm not sure. but i have read it from people that i don't personally know, as well) and i feel like that's kinda crappy and really unhelpful. i dunno, maybe i am seeing it wrong, maybe i should watch it again, but most of the teachers and school staff that i know a really compassionate and dedicated human beings who actually make way too many sacrifices in and for their jobs as it is... so seeing this kind of thing just ends up making me sad for THOSE reasons... and a little bit angry, if i'm completely honest.
Sep. 11th, 2012 01:28 pm (UTC)
Oh yeah. I think the movie is probably terrible. That's why I'm embarrassed that the trailer worked on me!
Sep. 13th, 2012 12:56 am (UTC)
a million hearts for you Jess. I know you get everything that I'm about to say, because we've talked about it umpteen times.

the "demonizing schools and teachers" thing is really popular/common, and makes me really sad. I work at a school with it's own set of challenges, and I feel so blessed that our admin and staff are really dedicated and amazing."I have known very, very few teachers that don't care deeply about their students, about doing right by them. Maybe I've just been fortunate.

I just know that as a teacher I would do so much for my students and my school, and this idea that teachers are lazy, that we only work 9-3:30, September to June, that we're overpaid and have too many benefits - from my experience, it's complete and utter bullshit, and it breaks my heart. Ask my partner, my family, my friends how much time I spend at school, how much I care about my kids, how much of myself I try to give to them.
Sep. 16th, 2012 10:01 pm (UTC)
It's interesting that you say this because I did get that same takeaway from this version of the trailer. But another one that I saw on tv focused exclusively on Viola Davis (Maggie Gyllenhaal didn't get more than 5 seconds of camera time) and really seemed to take the teachers' viewpoint on it as I'm presuming she is a frustrated teacher in this.

So it's definitely an example of targeted advertising. I wonder which ones are getting more airplay in which areas. I'm thinking the Viola Davis version may be getting more airplay in Chicago right now, for example, considering the strike recently. It'll be interesting to actually see what the movie's like, whose viewpoint is the main focus.
Sep. 11th, 2012 02:22 pm (UTC)
I cried at the office last week, but in the bathroom. Then I went to talk to a work friend (not a superior) and totally nearly started bawling in her office. It was briefly embarrassing, but at the same time I think it's sometimes a sign of how much we care/feel about anything. Doesn't bug me too much.
Sep. 11th, 2012 02:55 pm (UTC)
I'm the biggest water works I know... I cry at just about everything - sad thoughts, sad music, sad news stories, plus the touching emotional ones that are (actually?) really happy! I am so the person who cries during the Canada Post and Tim Horton's ads. I cry on the metro at least once a week, I swear.

Fortunately, I don't really care who sees, either - it tends to make people leave you alone most of the time, and it makes nice people ask if you're ok, which is kind of nice in itself.
Sep. 12th, 2012 09:18 pm (UTC)
The one thing I kind of miss about being unmedicated (aside from approximately 1/3 of my sex drive, and I mostly don't miss that) is the ability to cry. Things that used to provoke tears now just make me unbearably physically tense - the only time I've cried in the last few months that I can remember was from acute physical pain. It sucks! I didn't realize how satisfying crying was!
Sep. 13th, 2012 01:03 am (UTC)
I cry a lot. I'm getting more comfortable with it, in the right settings. I totally cry at sappy commercials though.

I have, on occasion, teared up in front of my class (like during the awesome conversations about rights, equality, and social justice I had with my grade 5/6 class last year while studying post-Confederation Canadian history last year. I was just so proud!), and I managed to narrowly avoid crying in front of them on the last day of school. I totally cried after they left though. I'm tearing up thinking about it.

I'm comfortable with my friends and family seeing me cry. Actually, I managed to make progress with my dad. He told me he doesn't like it when I cry, that it makes him feel guilty/bad. I think I've convinced him that he doesn't have to feel guilty, it's often my response when I get angry or upset and it's not something he should feel bad about. It's just how I deal.

oh, and I frequently cry at trailers, but that one didn't work on me, only because it pushed my angry teacher button, haha.

Edited at 2012-09-13 01:05 am (UTC)
Sep. 13th, 2012 05:43 am (UTC)
I love that Jairus reminds you of that and it made you post. It's a really great concept to be rooted in.

Feelings are good.
Sep. 13th, 2012 05:47 am (UTC)
OOOH. It made me cry, too. I love Maggie.
Sep. 14th, 2012 03:27 am (UTC)
Trailers shouldn't count. I get all teary eyed over ALL of them. ESPECIALLY the "against the odds, we can do it, sports montages with inspirational music and love interest" ones... which is to say ALL of them.

I am not comfortable with people seeing me cry. It's like I think the world will end or something. When it happens it looks supper raw and awkward because of how I never let it happen and it terrifies everyone with it's suddenness, strangeness and snottiness.

This is probably WHY people invented made for tv movies about Christmas and hospital dramas... so that the emotionally broken people of the world can let a few tears eek out into the blue light of their laptops with their headphones on, alone in a dark corner of their home, thus relieving the pressure so that the next time someone is nice to them they don't flip out bawling like there is no tomorrow.
Sep. 16th, 2012 10:05 pm (UTC)
Also, more on topic... I can't stand letting people see me cry. I'm only marginally comfortable crying in front of B. Granted, circumstances matter; I didn't give a fuck who saw me crying at my aunt's funeral, but I hid things completely while at work except for one breakdown in my boss's office after I got the news about her death. Other than that, I don't like crying in public and I especially loathe crying in the workplace (for myself). Just one of my personality quirks, I guess. I don't know that I want to become more comfortable with it; I'm okay with the balance I've struck with it.
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